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Brockton Panda
02:49
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She said she needs space
As I watched her tie her hair back I’m feeling the same
And for one brief moment I found myself caring again
When the world stops spinning I'm haunted by these 24 frames
Moment I sold that ghost, au revoir to what could have been
And now you know
You know I ain't that man at all
As these leaves change color remember that everything fades
And now you know
You know I ain't that man at all
Hating
All the things I used to ignore
Patching
The crumbling damn of your age
Prepare yourself for the flood
Seeing
I’m barreling out of control
Failing
With the clock of your life winding down
A body’s a failing thing
When the world stops spinning I’ll be here staring off again
Feeding your cat, staring at photos, remembering I ended it
And now you know
You know I ain't that man at all
And for this one brief moment I knew that I’d be ok
And now you know
You know I ain't that man at all
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2. |
Wolf Fang Fist!
04:30
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Hold your breath
The panic soon sets in
Bark demands
Like anyone’s listening
The lines been drawn out
Show your teeth as your claws dig in
I got your world in my hand
My heart races
And the sun burns on my back again
With all eyes forward
Your battle cry cuts
Across this wasteland of a lawn
That wet nose
These high hopes
A step back
And time froze
As my arm moves back to throw
Full speed in motion
You jump and your heart stands still
Steadfast devotion
That pup with the iron will
Your stare could cut glass
Triumphantly standing I beckon you back
So we start again
So we start again
When your jaws unclenched I grant you amnesty
And the world rolls back to my feet
Ennobled mutt I hold so dear to me
I couldn't do this alone
One more and lets go
OH!
Buddy!
Buddy!
Buddy!
OH!
OH!
Full speed in motion
You jump and your heart stands still
Steadfast devotion
That pup with the iron will
Full speed in motion
You jump and your heart stands still
Steadfast devotion
That pup with the iron will
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3. |
Spirit Bomb
03:49
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I'm gonna write a book
Full of all the mistakes I've made
My personal Everest
Amidst a barren landscape
It's hard to put a title on
Such a decaying tomb
A lexicon of honesty
As you hunt through all these sun bleached bones
I'm just trying to let you in
I'm just trying to let you in
Through a decade of scars and a war torn heart
I can't let you in
I'm gonna dig a ditch
Fill it with my hopes and dreams
Top it off with gasoline
Light a match and start the eulogy
As I stare across this funeral pyre
Into an endless cloud of smoke
This feeling rushes over me
That these cinders now have become home
I'm just trying to let you in
I'm just trying to let you in
We're all islands
On an uncharted boundless map
As years fade down
I don't long for the coast
Don't complicate
Take two steps back
Just focus on breathing
Stop these knuckles from shaking
And in the end
When you draw your final breath
These dollars and cents
The shit you collect all just slowly turns to dirt
Don't complicate
Take two steps back
Just focus on breathing
Stop these knuckles from shaking
I'm just trying to let you in
We're all islands
I'm just trying to let you in
We're all islands
I'm just trying to let you in
We're all islands
As this fire smolders down to ashes I think
Was it worth my time dwelling on trivial things
Completely compulsive, immensely destructive
Now I know it won't amount to nothing at all
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4. |
The Spinz
03:51
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Woke up dizzy and nervous
I think I bit through my tongue again
As the blood stains the sink
Down the hall I hear voices
Apparition of an argument
Abbey, where did you go?
Is this the way my world ends?
And as of late
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
And I can't think straight enough
To see the wall in front of me
What instigates
Worth getting out of bed
Spending all this time
Fighting the voice inside your head
Seems like endless appointments
Revolving door of E.R. trips
Watch my bank account burn
Disappointing engagements
Your white cell counts on the rise
Betrayed by my own blood
Is this the way my world ends?
And as of late
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
And I can't think straight enough
To see the wall in front of me
What instigates
Any sense of self
When all that's left
Is just the shell that you've become
Been writing down
All of these questions I got for you
To defame this gospel you hail as truth
I'm down and out
Finally seeing the liars now
This light burns out
Under the crashing wave
This heart beat fails
As I'm swept out to sea
This light burns out
Under the crashing wave
This heart beat fails
As I'm swept out to sea
As of late
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
I've been writing down
All of these questions
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5. |
Dope Shades
04:46
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She kept roses by the door
In a house I can’t breath in no more
Old broken stove and a shattered coffee cup
That note I just straight up forgot
I’ve been getting stable
You’ve been paying rent
Don't think we’re able to come back from this
They finally shut all the lights off
And I've been off my med's for nearly a month
It’s so cold
Burning books again to try and stay warm
And chasing ghosts
As the walls cave in
And I’ve been waiting
Oh, so many nights
Just to wake with my head on my phone
And I’ve been thinking
Something isn't right
Waking up in this house all alone
This ain’t a nightmare this was a fight
The one that shattered all you know
And I’ve been praying I got it right
Cause I'm the worst at letting go
It’s so cold
Digging through dusty boxes and tattered photos
And taking note
Of all the things I never knew
And I’ve been waiting
Oh, so many nights
Just to wake with my head on my phone
And I’ve been thinking
Something isn't right
Waking up in this house all alone
This ain’t a nightmare this was a fight
The one that shattered all you know
And I’ve been praying I got it right
Cause I'm the worst at letting go
And I’ve been waiting
Oh, so many nights
Just to wake with my head on my phone
And I’ve been thinking
Something isn't right
Waking up in this house all alone
This ain’t a nightmare this was a fight
The one that shattered all you know
And I’ve been praying I got it right
Cause I'm the worst at letting go
Cause I’ve been waiting
Oh, so many nights
Just to wake with my head on my phone
And I’ve been thinking
Something isn't right
Waking up in this house all alone
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6. |
Unreal Big Fish
04:26
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Well I bet
When they catch you and cut you open
Spill your life on the dock
A mound of gold and broken hearts
Will come barreling out on the floorboards washing up on shore
Like Golden trash
Of the people that you were before
And I know
This will be a rude awakening
Letting people see
The monster dwelling underneath
Well your Instagram perfect, self centered portraits
Never show the truth
As long as you keep stacking views
This isn't easy to write about
Watch your heart sink as these words fire out my mouth
If there's one thing for sure
It’s that you’ve said these lines before
The only difference
Is I don't care anymore
La didi da, didi da...
Well I watched
As the waves took their toll on you
It ain't an easy life
Getting punch drunk with the tide
But then you chose to stay, watched him die a bit everyday
You learned to lie to survive
This wasn't easy to write about
I questioned my own worth as these words fired out my mouth
If there's one thing that’s true
Is it ain't easy being you
The only difference
Is I don't care anymore
La didi da, didi da...
We got old and the fire died
And all these ghosts won’t keep you warm at night
Tossing in bed, wracking your head, too scared
To admit you're all alone
La didi da, didi da...
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7. |
Astronaut
03:59
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I wanna be a thousand
Miles above the sea
So I can finally think
And make some sense of it
I wanna live to a million
See all of History
Cause then I’ll finally speak
Cause I’ll know everything
Wouldn’t that be swell
Kinda sounds like hell
I’m just sick
Of hearing your voice in my dreams
Making a scene
And excuses for everything
You were the brightest light
One that could burn yet guide
It took a lifetime to handle this
And only seconds to say goodbye
Say goodbye
I fight to open the front door
And let the daylight in
Waging war with my self doubt
In hopes to god I win
Cause everyday I hesitate to open up my head
When all these thoughts come rushing out
I’m ready for the end of it
I guess I'm ready for the end of this
I’m just sick
Of hearing your voice in my dreams
Making a scene
And excuses for everything
Everyday I hesitate to let the daylight in
Everyday I hesitate to let the daylight in
It’s so hard, it's so hard to move on
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8. |
That's A Chunky
05:56
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Your parting words
Echo through every bone
My head in hands
Walk off into the brush to die alone
Years go by and I'm still here
Rusted up and battered gears
Though this wheel still spins
Consistency comes at a cost
Scars reflect the things you've lost
All along the way
Conflicting times
She finds herself counting blessings over and over at night
Totals: one, two, three, four
I ain't felt right
In nearly a decade's worth of lies and sedatives
Lost all faith
All initiatives g(one,) two, three, four
Try to make amends
With all of the families
Broken and content
To watch it all fade
Years go by and I'm still here
Rusted up and battered gears
Though this wheel still spins
Consistency comes at a cost
Scars reflect the things you've lost
All along the way
Heard a towering storm
Will come sweeping through in the morning
Wash up the bones of the dead
Make them the displaced and forgotten
Total immersion
Complete delusion
Save the sinking mast
Or leave the hull cracked
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9. |
Oat Roper
04:59
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10. |
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Your track mark arms and dead sunken eyes
You promised me you would just stay home tonight
But when those headlights came crashing through
I knew that there's no way I'm leaving without a fight
Spent all this time
Abusing yourself to leave your body behind
And when the world starts burning
You turn to the needle for a lifeline
You took her advice
You kept that demon at bay for a while
Compulsion melted with the snow
But then your fall came
Shorter days make longer nights
And he's finding work for both your idle hands
Spent all this time
Abusing yourself to leave your body behind
And when the world starts burning
You turn to the needle for a lifeline
Breathe
Just breathe
You've shouldered this weight for far too long
And you shouldn't have to
Leave
Just leave
You're caught in the eye of the storm
And I stayed out
Until the morning light
Just to bring you your bag
And to say my last goodbye
Turned back on the ride home
Left nothing that you would regret
Spending every dime that you had
Just to get to where you can forget
Turned back on the ride home
Left nothing that you would regret
Spending every dime that you had
Just to get to where you can forget
Turned back on the ride home
Left nothing that you would regret
Spending every dime that you had
Just to get to where you can forget
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11. |
Mr. Sleep
04:59
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I’ve been here
For what you call eternity
Taking shape
Into something more comforting
Rest a little easier
Worry or not I'll be there
Shorter than you think
Swift mistake, a slow demise
Bitter end, the sweetest eyes
Finally letting go
I stand over your bed
While this shadow wraps around your neck
Truth be told
This one feels different
I’m finding it hard
To step into the swing of this
For one quick second I thought
That I might still have a heart
But that's not why I come here
That's not why they call
Day after day I seem to be breaking down
And after all this time
Should be easier to cope with
Rest a little easier
Worry or not I'll be there
Waiting in the wings
A broken heart, a fatal lie
The truth of where your soul resides
Finally time to go
While I stand over your bed
As these hands wrap around your neck
Truth be told
This one feels different
I’m finding it hard
To step into the swing of this
For one quick second I thought
That I might still have a heart
But that's not why I come here
That's not why they call
I’ve been here
For all of antiquity
Taking shape
Into the last thing you’ll
Ever
See.
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Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities Boston, Massachusetts
Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities is a progressive, emo, math, and indie/post-rock amalgam from Boston, Massachusetts
and Providence, Rhode Island.
While often showcasing complex rhythmic changes and chaotic instrumentals, they always offer a wide variety of anthemic and memorable vocals with thoughtfully crafted hooks and a chorus you can shout along to.
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