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1.
We sat parallel the window Preparing for the verbal assault A square in the tablecloth for each day we didn't talk A myriad of outlandish little articles Pouring out past nicotine teeth I take in each word of it reluctantly questioning It's just your pride that's in trouble Use more nouns than verbs Statically impressed by all the unimpressed effort All you've missed Just five years of birthdays and funerals And a few late night hospital trips Or that week I went vegan in my documentary stint I'm talking more and eating less Writing songs with more intellect Ardent little silhouettes with chromatic breakdowns All I know is All I have is All I write is All i know is I'm just stuck, with, you Darling you’re speaking in circles Been carrying those mask for years The black holes round your eyes reaffirm my greatest fear The time you spend building lies Burning bridges to survive It's probably why you can't sleep at night The time you waste building lies Burning bridges to survive It's probably why you can't sleep at night
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They decided what vice takes up our time On mobile TV screens on stacks of Internet likes Great divide In my mundane daily life Am I conscious and cognizant or thoughtless limps and eyes Genocide Of the self thinking righteous type That finally gave in Finally gave up Tonight Find myself again Painting the same old picture Complacent defeated man Who finally lost it Sunrise Another day Sunset Another day When a bullet reads success It'd be the fastest thing he ever did Your just a brick In a wall of many Number nine on my list Of the things I fear most And oh god the wreckage that I crave Haven't seen it in years Haven't slept right for days And It's just a damn cold night When you notice the road your on Stable but something's wrong Feels like I'm falling backwards It's just my pride That calmly took failure As a place to hang low Oh hey we'll you tried To my callus hands that keep loosing ambition with every new year and every new band It's just a damn cold night When you question the road your own Shaky but nothing's wrong Feels like I'm falling backwards Stalling out my life with second thought Indecision is cowardice for those who can't let go And I know I can't let go Going no where End it now Going nowhere End it now And It's just a damn cold night When you notice the road your on Stable but something's wrong Feels like I'm falling backwards It's just my brain That keeps finding the worst I'm everyone that I meet and every new song And to those restless nights I kept fighting my eyelids for one last idea From a well that's run dry It's just a damn cold night When you question the road your own Shaky but nothing's wrong Feels like I'm falling backwards
3.
My hearts an abandoned building of crumbling brick and caved in ceilings Perched on shattered sidewalks Where the cracks in the streets show my scattered thoughts I don't think like I use to And I could have known No one could ever be this miserable And I should have known No one can stay this cold for long Press play I'm reliving it again Different hair different face but the same routine Sit still my hands shake my nerves break Though my thoughts are treading water body's drowning fast Press play I'm reliving it again Different hair different face but the same hollow eyes Oh god this can't be Oh god this can't be love I'm failure by design And all we can do is go though the motions I saw the storm Before the forecast With an end result not meaning much And I could have known No one could ever be this miserable And I should have known No one can stay this cold for long Press play I'm reliving it again Different hair different face but the same routine Sit still my hands shake my nerves break Though my thoughts are treading water body's drowning fast Press play I'm reliving it again Different hair different face but the same hollow eyes Oh god this can't be Oh god this can't be love I'll break down every brick every wall Obsessively searching for some kind of purpose I'll break down and take a look at myself A fatal perspective through spider webbed lenses L is for loosing a true sense of self O ver thinking it breaking you down V is for viciously tearing apart E is the emptiness inside us all Gave up on it before it started
4.
Simple things like negative numbers and possibilities Boring pin hole leaks that will sink this ship repeatedly In other ways It's convinced me these stable days Are death rattles of ambition and my own self loathing And on the world turns Anna Marie Your just a slew of destructive tendency A cleric to a drink based religion where your focus is week to week Idle hands and map making Explicit plans a learned anxiety From all Those lonely nights your father stole you dignity And on the world turns We're failing to see The forest through the trees And the sirens are deafening I'm cutting my teeth on a newly formed sense of co-dependency Don't lie it's been Nothing but late night phone calls Pointless little expected talks A nostalgic script of what we're not Where I spend more time suppressing evidence For cutting ties and ending all of this outright Instead of forcing out any progressive dialogue Don't be So Lonely Falling snow Paints the sidewalks Frigid bones A paradox to the boiling mess I'm tossing out my throat Idle hands and map making Stagnant plans a learned anxiety From all those sleepless nights I spent writing songs There you go again Counting all the reasons you can try and cut me down I wish I could act so proud But the fact is I've got both feet on the ground and you don't think (Well I think I've thought long enough) About what you're saying (Don't think anything needs to be said) The truth of the matter is you think more than act A dismal little pessimist with an attitude to match So stand on your podium scoff out big words Like your the only one on planet earth that's read a book before But i know deep down you're as guilty as ever Whether it's drugs booze and cigarettes Or the nights you chose me instead I've spent my days throwing stones from a glass house perched on a cliff when the foundation slowly erodes I'll sight that I'm sinking towards the rocks down below
5.
You where the everything That gave me a little sense My frame is just wires stings and power tubes Old lyrics that I'll never use But I'm losing touch She says I just think to much Strange how the spark of brilliance sings When you've given up on everything It's the expectation Barreling wildly out of control And the day you chose to fold It's the nervous habits That have plagued me since I was a kid And for never facing them Nothing we ever did justified the means (Still playing rock star by bar lights) To all the same nameless animals we called Our fans These where the violent things That showed us we're human beings Not hollow bones adhering to a shallow main I swear there' still blood in these veins But your losing touch I think you just think too much Strange how the spark of brilliance sings When you've given up on everything Any sense of humility A ghost I can't keep up with all these stupid scenes It's a volatile cancer that nothing can treat It's just an ego driven hypocrisy We're wounded animals with blood in our teeth

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Paul Gaughran: Guitar & Yelling
Dan Smith: Bass & More yelling
Dennis Bere: Guitar & Slightly less yelling
Jesse Stiglich: Drums, Percussion & Fair amounts of yelling
Derek Tanch: Keyboards, Synth & Little to no yelling

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released May 10, 2015

Recorded/mixed/mastered by: Jim Keaney @ Devotion Recording, Everett, Ma & Chillhouse Studios, Charlestown, Ma

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Guest vocals on Track 4 by: Noelle Leblanc (of the Organ Beats)

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Guest keys played by: Steve Capachione on Tracks 1 & 4

Saxophone, Trombone, and Trumpet by: Chelsea Fisk, Matthew Ahrens, & James Sheehan (of Dionysus Park Ranger)

Artwork by: Rebecca Yates

All songs written and performed by Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities

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Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities Boston, Massachusetts

Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities is a progressive, emo, math, and indie/post-rock amalgam from Boston, Massachusetts and Providence, Rhode Island.

While often showcasing complex rhythmic changes and chaotic instrumentals, they always offer a wide variety of anthemic and memorable vocals with thoughtfully crafted hooks and a chorus you can shout along to.
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