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Paul Gaughran: Guitar & Yelling
Dan Smith: Bass & More yelling
Dennis Bere: Guitar & Slightly less yelling
Jesse Stiglich: Drums, Percussion & Fair amounts of yelling
Derek Tanch: Keyboards, Synth & Little to no yelling

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released May 10, 2015

Recorded/mixed/mastered by: Jim Keaney @ Devotion Recording, Everett, Ma & Chillhouse Studios, Charlestown, Ma

www.JimKeaney.com

Guest vocals on Track 4 by: Noelle Leblanc (of the Organ Beats)

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Guest keys played by: Steve Capachione on Tracks 1 & 4

Saxophone, Trombone, and Trumpet by: Chelsea Fisk, Matthew Ahrens, & James Sheehan (of Dionysus Park Ranger)

Artwork by: Rebecca Yates

All songs written and performed by Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities

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Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities Boston, Massachusetts

Once upon a time in the mythical land of the South Shore, a bunch of nerds who could play instruments got drunk together and decided to start a band. Two years, *soon to be* two records, and thousands of beers later Professor Caffeine & the Insecurities is tearing up the whatever-you-wanna-call-it scene in Boston with a signature combo of erratic progressive and post-emo singalong worthy rock. ... more

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Track Name: My Date With Anna Marie Was Emotionally and Physically Exhausting
We sat parallel the window
Preparing for the verbal assault
A square in the table cloth for each day we didn't talk

A myriad of outlandish little articles
Pouring out past nicotine teeth
I take in each word of it reluctantly questioning

It's just your pride that's in trouble
Use more nouns than verbs
Statically impressed by all the unimpressed effort

All you've missed
Just five years of birthdays and funerals

And a few late night hospital trips
Or that week I went vegan in my documentary stint

I'm talking more and eating less
Writing songs with more intellect
Ardent little silhouettes with chromatic breakdowns

All I know is
All I have is
All I write is
All i know is

I'm just stuck, with, you

Darling your speaking in circles
Been carrying those mask for years
The black holes round your eyes reaffirm my greatest fear

The time you spend building lies
Burning bridges to survive
It's probably why you can't sleep at night

The time you waste building lies
Burning bridges to survive
It's probably why you can't sleep at night
Track Name: Ever Since That Car Accident, Steve Sure Has Been Acting Strange
They decided what vice takes up our time
On mobile TV screens on stacks of Internet likes

Great divide
In my mundane daily life
Am I conscious and cognizant or thoughtless limps and eyes

Genocide
Of the self thinking righteous type
That finally gave in
Finally gave up
Tonight

Find myself again
Painting the same old picture

Complacent defeated man
Who finally lost it

Sunrise
Another day
Sunset
Another day

When a bullet reads success
It'd be the fastest thing he ever did

Your just a brick
In a wall of many
Number nine on my list
Of the things I fear most

And oh god the wreckage that I crave
Haven't seen it in years
Haven't slept right for days

And It's just a damn cold night
When you notice the road your on
Stable but something's wrong
Feels like I'm falling backwards

It's just my pride
That calmly took failure
As a place to hang low
Oh hey we'll you tried

To my callus hands that keep loosing ambition with every new year and every new band

It's just a damn cold night
When you question the road your own
Shaky but nothing's wrong
Feels like I'm falling backwards

Stalling out my life with second thought
Indecision is cowardice for those who can't let go
And I know I can't let go

Going no where
End it now
Going nowhere
End it now

And It's just a damn cold night
When you notice the road your on
Stable but something's wrong
Feels like I'm falling backwards

It's just my brain
That keeps finding the worst I'm everyone that I meet and every new song

And to those restless nights
I kept fighting my eyelids for one last idea
From a well that's run dry

It's just a damn cold night
When you question the road your own
Shaky but nothing's wrong
Feels like I'm falling backwards
Track Name: HANK PYM!!! (Why You Gotta Be So Small?)
My hearts an abandoned building
of crumbling brick and caved in ceilings

Perched on shattered sidewalks
Where the cracks in the streets show my scattered thoughts

I don't think like I use to

And I could have known
No one could ever be this miserable
And I should have known
No one can stay this cold for long

Press play I'm reliving it again
Different hair different face but the same routine

Sit still my hands shake my nerves break
Though my thoughts are treading water body's drowning fast

Press play I'm reliving it again
Different hair different face but the same hollow eyes

Oh god this can't be
Oh god this can't be love

I'm failure by design
And all we can do is go though the motions

I saw the storm
Before the forecast
With an end result not meaning much

And I could have known
No one could ever be this miserable
And I should have known
No one can stay this cold for long


Press play I'm reliving it again
Different hair different face but the same routine

Sit still my hands shake my nerves break
Though my thoughts are treading water body's drowning fast

Press play I'm reliving it again
Different hair different face but the same hollow eyes

Oh god this can't be
Oh god this can't be love

I'll break down every brick every wall
Obsessively searching for some kind of purpose

I'll break down and take a look at myself
A fatal perspective through spider webbed lenses

L is for loosing a true sense of self
O ver thinking it breaking you down
V is for viciously tearing apart
E is the emptiness inside us all

Gave up on it before it started
Track Name: An Evening With Victor Fries After A Decade of Getting The Cold Shoulder
Simple things like negative numbers and possibilities
Boring pin hole leaks that will sink this ship repeatedly

In other ways
It's convinced me these stable days
Are death rattles of ambition and my own self loathing

And on the world turns

Anna Marie
Your just a slew of destructive tendency
A cleric to a drink based religion where your focus is week to week

Idle hands and map making
Explicit plans a learned anxiety
From all Those lonely nights your father stole you dignity

And on the world turns

We're failing to see
The forest through the trees
And the sirens are deafening
I'm cutting my teeth on a newly formed sense of co-dependency

Don't lie it's been
Nothing but late night phone calls
Pointless little expected talks
A nostalgic script of what we're not

Where I spend more time suppressing evidence
For cutting ties and ending all of this outright
Instead of forcing out any progressive dialogue

Don't be
So Lonely

Falling snow
Paints the sidewalks
Frigid bones
A paradox to the boiling mess I'm tossing out my throat

Idle hands and map making
Stagnant plans a learned anxiety
From all those sleepless nights I spent writing songs

There you go again
Counting all the reasons you can try and cut me down
I wish I could act so proud
But the fact is I've got both feet on the ground and you don't think
(Well I think I've thought long enough)
About what you're saying
(Don't think anything needs to be said)

The truth of the matter is you think more than act
A dismal little pessimist with an attitude to match
So stand on your podium scoff out big words
Like your the only one on planet earth that's read a book before
But i know deep down you're as guilty as ever
Whether it's drugs booze and cigarettes
Or the nights you chose me instead

I've spent my days throwing stones
from a glass house perched on a cliff
when the foundation slowly erodes
I'll sight that I'm sinking towards the rocks down below
Track Name: You're My Mary Jane, Not My Gwen Stacy ( I Won't Accidentally Kill You)
You where the everything
That gave me a little sense
My frame is just wires stings and power tubes
Old lyrics that I'll never use

But I'm losing touch
She says I just think to much
Strange how the spark of brilliance sings
When you've given up on everything

It's the expectation
Barreling wildly out of control
And the day you chose to fold

It's the nervous habits
That have plagued me since I was a kid
And for never facing them

Nothing we ever did justified the means
(Still playing rock star by bar lights)
To all the same nameless animals we called
Our fans

These where the violent things
That showed us we're human beings
Not hollow bones adhering to a shallow main
I swear there' still blood in these veins

But your losing touch
I think you just think too much
Strange how the spark of brilliance sings
When you've given up on everything

Any sense of humility
A ghost

I can't keep up with all these stupid scenes
It's a volatile cancer that nothing can treat
It's just an ego driven hypocrisy
We're wounded animals with blood in our teeth